Jeremiah 29:11-13

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

It is so crazy that this is the verse of the day! I so needed this! I truly believe that God is about to do something amazing in my life. He is opening to many opportunities for me. Recently I was told to make a business proposal for a large caffe franchise. Upon on creating this proposal I really felt that God was with me every step of the way. Though I am so blessed from God I must keep focus and remember it is not myself who has gone this far but the father. It is also very very easy to lose focus. Instead of focusing on God who has given this blessing to you, it is easy to stray and constantly focus on the blessing it self. I want to remain faithful in God while I continue this journey with him because without him It won't be according to his will. My prayers actually been pretty funny in the last few days and of this week. It's been something like this, "God I know I shouldn't pray for wealth and success l but God you know my heart so let your will be done." Though this is a huge opportunity I will not be upset if it is turned down. I've seen what God can do and he is on my team so he can do it again. 

God let your will be done. I surrender to you and will hold on to your strength alone and not my own. Please guide me through this and mold me to something greater for your kingdom. Is Christ name. Amen

A King for a slave.

This will be my first blog on blogger. Today I stumbled on something very interesting and humbling. I was listening to a song from hillsong and one of the verses in there said "a king for a slave". This made me realize how much just god loves us. Reminded me that God was not just a king but king of all kings. Yet this king came down to earth struggles with us and lived the life we lived then even died for our sins. Recently I've been thinking about God like crazy. I can't really figure out what it really is that I want...... I want him to be here physically I guess or I want his presence to overwhelm me. I feel like he is calling me to so something and I just don't know what it is. Although I realized how much I've changed over the year. Since then my heart has been much bigger and always trying to help others, but I feel thag there is more. I spoke to my pastor and he told me sometimes God calls us to be still and wait. Do I feel like this cause I feel alone? Will being productive in The Lord make me more whole? There's a fire in me that just want to inspire and bring people closer to god. I just don't know how and what to do. Right now I feel very medium. Not up or down but not content... Which I guess brings down. Do I really understand your death and depth on the cross? That alone I should be content. It's like you've given me everything and I say I want more. I want more in you though God... But is that the same and just as bad? I guess the only thing I can say or do is "thy kingdom come thy will be done". Still I feel this calling...this urge....this emptiness I must fill and close... Is this emptiness that I'm feeling coming from me? Am I afraid to admit it? If it is what must I do? I guess I can only turn the pages while you write my story.