A King for a slave.

This will be my first blog on blogger. Today I stumbled on something very interesting and humbling. I was listening to a song from hillsong and one of the verses in there said "a king for a slave". This made me realize how much just god loves us. Reminded me that God was not just a king but king of all kings. Yet this king came down to earth struggles with us and lived the life we lived then even died for our sins. Recently I've been thinking about God like crazy. I can't really figure out what it really is that I want...... I want him to be here physically I guess or I want his presence to overwhelm me. I feel like he is calling me to so something and I just don't know what it is. Although I realized how much I've changed over the year. Since then my heart has been much bigger and always trying to help others, but I feel thag there is more. I spoke to my pastor and he told me sometimes God calls us to be still and wait. Do I feel like this cause I feel alone? Will being productive in The Lord make me more whole? There's a fire in me that just want to inspire and bring people closer to god. I just don't know how and what to do. Right now I feel very medium. Not up or down but not content... Which I guess brings down. Do I really understand your death and depth on the cross? That alone I should be content. It's like you've given me everything and I say I want more. I want more in you though God... But is that the same and just as bad? I guess the only thing I can say or do is "thy kingdom come thy will be done". Still I feel this calling...this urge....this emptiness I must fill and close... Is this emptiness that I'm feeling coming from me? Am I afraid to admit it? If it is what must I do? I guess I can only turn the pages while you write my story.