Can't have disciples without discipline.

God is big. Recently I've realized how big our god really is, and I'm having the difficulty giving the respect he deserves. Of course I love my god with all my heart but what I mean is to be more fearful of him. It's so hard for me to see him as a fearing god who can take everything away to creating planets. At the moment I still see him as my savior and friend. I've been trying to discipline myself into doing so but it isn't easy. I always have God in my mind and I always do small prayers here and there but I haven't made a time of the day where I dedicate my self to him. Through this I realized how little self control over my self. Although all this is going on I'm surprised that I haven't fallen astray due to my lack of obedience. Usually I feel pretty disappointed at myself whenever I fail at something, but at the moment the more I fail the more I feel like running to God. The best example would be a father helping his son with homework, and every time he fails he just doesn't want to try anymore and wants to play catch with his dad. I'm frustrated at the same time a glad that I'm going through this in my life. I can feel that God is building a part of me that hasn't been touched for while. Breaking me, and remaking me into his child. I want to be set apart, I want to not only love everyone but be able to encourage everyone with his words. Keep me strong, and hopeful, in Christ name.