Romans 6:23

For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 6:23 NIV)

Is so true that the bible speaks to you differently every time you read it. This was the verse of the day and for some reasons I was screaming out to me. The difference between Christianity and religion is other people try to go to god in ither religions but Christianity god comes to us. In here the writer of Romans is saying eternal life is a gift. Have you ever given to a gift to someone, the feeling of it is just amazing. It's like even if they don't want it, you just want them to just take it. And when they accepts it and receives it, it makes you feel so amazing, words can't express when someone receives what you give them and loves it. God died..... For us. Sometimes I think that it's either amazing or pathetic that it took a god to die for us to forgive our sins. Thank you god, I will never repay you for what you've done.

Can't have disciples without discipline.

God is big. Recently I've realized how big our god really is, and I'm having the difficulty giving the respect he deserves. Of course I love my god with all my heart but what I mean is to be more fearful of him. It's so hard for me to see him as a fearing god who can take everything away to creating planets. At the moment I still see him as my savior and friend. I've been trying to discipline myself into doing so but it isn't easy. I always have God in my mind and I always do small prayers here and there but I haven't made a time of the day where I dedicate my self to him. Through this I realized how little self control over my self. Although all this is going on I'm surprised that I haven't fallen astray due to my lack of obedience. Usually I feel pretty disappointed at myself whenever I fail at something, but at the moment the more I fail the more I feel like running to God. The best example would be a father helping his son with homework, and every time he fails he just doesn't want to try anymore and wants to play catch with his dad. I'm frustrated at the same time a glad that I'm going through this in my life. I can feel that God is building a part of me that hasn't been touched for while. Breaking me, and remaking me into his child. I want to be set apart, I want to not only love everyone but be able to encourage everyone with his words. Keep me strong, and hopeful, in Christ name.

Jeremiah 29:11-13

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

It is so crazy that this is the verse of the day! I so needed this! I truly believe that God is about to do something amazing in my life. He is opening to many opportunities for me. Recently I was told to make a business proposal for a large caffe franchise. Upon on creating this proposal I really felt that God was with me every step of the way. Though I am so blessed from God I must keep focus and remember it is not myself who has gone this far but the father. It is also very very easy to lose focus. Instead of focusing on God who has given this blessing to you, it is easy to stray and constantly focus on the blessing it self. I want to remain faithful in God while I continue this journey with him because without him It won't be according to his will. My prayers actually been pretty funny in the last few days and of this week. It's been something like this, "God I know I shouldn't pray for wealth and success l but God you know my heart so let your will be done." Though this is a huge opportunity I will not be upset if it is turned down. I've seen what God can do and he is on my team so he can do it again. 

God let your will be done. I surrender to you and will hold on to your strength alone and not my own. Please guide me through this and mold me to something greater for your kingdom. Is Christ name. Amen

A King for a slave.

This will be my first blog on blogger. Today I stumbled on something very interesting and humbling. I was listening to a song from hillsong and one of the verses in there said "a king for a slave". This made me realize how much just god loves us. Reminded me that God was not just a king but king of all kings. Yet this king came down to earth struggles with us and lived the life we lived then even died for our sins. Recently I've been thinking about God like crazy. I can't really figure out what it really is that I want...... I want him to be here physically I guess or I want his presence to overwhelm me. I feel like he is calling me to so something and I just don't know what it is. Although I realized how much I've changed over the year. Since then my heart has been much bigger and always trying to help others, but I feel thag there is more. I spoke to my pastor and he told me sometimes God calls us to be still and wait. Do I feel like this cause I feel alone? Will being productive in The Lord make me more whole? There's a fire in me that just want to inspire and bring people closer to god. I just don't know how and what to do. Right now I feel very medium. Not up or down but not content... Which I guess brings down. Do I really understand your death and depth on the cross? That alone I should be content. It's like you've given me everything and I say I want more. I want more in you though God... But is that the same and just as bad? I guess the only thing I can say or do is "thy kingdom come thy will be done". Still I feel this calling...this urge....this emptiness I must fill and close... Is this emptiness that I'm feeling coming from me? Am I afraid to admit it? If it is what must I do? I guess I can only turn the pages while you write my story.